Fair enough! I needed to wake at 5:00 am. Easy enough.. My plan will be executed this morning.
This got me thinking.. why was I so resistant to do this before...
- What caused my resistance to exercise??
- Was it rationalization or purely just excuse making??
- Why did I employ defense mechanisms to fend off exercise?
Here is what I discovered:
Defense mechanisms are thought to safeguard the mind against feelings and thoughts that are too difficult for the conscious mind to cope with. In some instances, defense mechanisms are thought to keep inappropriate or unwanted thoughts and impulses from entering the conscious mind.
For example, if you are faced with a particularly unpleasant task,[ HMM insert Exercise here] your mind may choose to forget your responsibility in order to avoid the dreaded assignment. In addition to forgetting, other defense mechanisms include rationalization, denial, repression, projection, rejection and reaction formation.
Rationalization is a defense mechanism that involves explaining an unacceptable behavior or feeling in a rational or logical manner, avoiding the true reasons for the behavior. For example, a person who is turned down for a date might rationalize the situation by saying they were not attracted to the other person anyway, or a student might blame a poor exam score on the instructor rather than his or her lack of preparation.
Rationalization not only prevents anxiety, it may also protect self-esteem and self-concept. When confronted by success or failure, people tend to attribute achievement to their own qualities and skills while failures are blamed on other people or outside forces. [INSERT DOUBLE HMMM]So that brings us to excuse making... label it with any psychy term you want to pull out of the air.. but at the end of the day it is a tactic for avoidance.
My theory is that YOU need to accept the REALITY of why you are not exercising.. and ask your self the hard questions... WHY ARE YOU AVOIDING EXERCISE??
Once you accept the reality, you then need to figure out what are you going to do about it.. and I do not mean try to rationalize the action.... you need to make a decision to either accept it or reject it.
So that is where I am at with this... I have rejected the rationalization approach, the excuse making and have decided to take control of the matter.. i.e. TAKE RESPONSIBILITY!!
The realization.. it has taken my many months to accept the fact that despite my band, I will need to exercise to lose weight.. duh! what the hell.. did I not know this pre-band.
I really think I rationalized that the band = continuous weight loss. and no need to exercise.... it just doesn't work that way (for me).