I have the band.
I have 8.5 cc's in my 11cc band.
I have somewhat good restriction in my band.
Then why does my brain want to binge??
I have a bit of anxiety right now.. I leave at 5:30 am tomorrow for a week long trip.
I am going to be on this trip with 7 of my work colleagues. ... and the last thing I feel like doing is spending all day and evening with them, but I will; hence my anxiety; hence my desire and actions to binge (on food).
So I know better.
I know that I should look for a healthy snack.
I should go for a walk or exercise to release the tension.
I should do something else... something other than eat 3 healthy choice ice cream sandwiches (yes that is a slider food of sorts).
No, it was not just the ice cream, it was almonds, I must have eaten 30 almonds.. and there was other stuff.. Why am I punishing myself.. I will already be in hell, so why do I make it worse??
I binged on what I would call my healthy treats; but they turned on me, and it was no treat.
Now I must go pack my bag..
And hope that my week away does not drive me to raid some hallway vending machine, or make middle of the night calls down to room service.
I am hoping to hit the gym at the hotel, but I know that several of them work out in the morning, and the last thing I want is forthem to see me sweating and panting.. (can you say AWKWARD)...
Oh Lord, let it be Friday... let it be Friday so that the next day will be Saturday and then my DH and I will be on another plane on our way to Florida for two weeks...
I will need that two weeks to let my brain heal..
Have a good night..
As I was pulling my stuff together.. what do I find in my luggage, but my Chloe's bone (she apparently wanted me to take it along.)