28 January 2011

Just Knowing...

Just knowing you are there and thinking about us... brings incredible comfort to my heart.
There are no words that can capture the immense love I feel from all of you.
Your kindness
Your warmth
Your caring
Your arms that have reached out to hug me and my girls.

My heart aches beyond measure, yet you are all there to let me know it will be OK over time.
Your words, your sentiments where at times too much to read.
My girls and I huddled around the computer into the late hours to read your words.
We cried
and cried
and then cried some more..
We felt the tears from heaven.
Too much emotion to take in, to process
Too much emotion to release in one breath.

It is all still too fresh in my heart.
The moments of selection to get Mark ready for his next journey have shaken me to the core..

The snow confounds the plans
My sweet Mark is still waiting to be put to his final rest.
That won't happen until Wednesday.
The pain is too much to bare.
I sit here now and wait..
Wait for time to pass
Wait for roads to be cleared
Wait for people to arrive
Wait to put my sweet love to rest...

Your flowers were beautiful.. and sit proudly in view
Soft music, his favorites,  play in the background.
My girls have created an unbelievable tribute to him that I will post next week.

So .. thank you my dearest friends..
Just knowing you from near and a far is comforting..

Hug your babies
Kiss your loved ones

Thank your God

Life is precious and way way too short.

Be well my good friends.. you have touched my heart beyond all comprehension
I love you..


  1. Love to you and yours Barbara.

  2. I feel so helpless. I wish I could give you more than words. I am so sorry on top of everything the weather is not cooperating. I am hoping that the people you are waiting to arrive will give you the hugs and love that we can't give you in person.

  3. We love you so much, Barb. I will be thinking of you all on Wednesday, especially.

  4. Love you too Barb... please give and get hugs to/from your girls from all of us. We love you.

  5. I am new to your blog, but know how sad I am and so terribly sorry to hear about your loss.. Please know that you and yours are in my prayers...

  6. What beautiful words... even in overwhelming grief you are fabulous. I wish I could be there to hug you but knowing that my heart is hugging yours right now... You and the girls are in my thoughts and prayers. In conclusion, Snow Sucks.

  7. Oh Barbara...you and your daughters are soooooooo in my thoughts and prayers


  8. Love you Barbara. My heart breaks for you all.

  9. Barb I wanted to say something but I never know what to say in times like this. I feel like nothing I say could make you feel better. I can't even imagine the pain you're feeling. Reading about what happened made me hold my husband a little tighter. You have an amazing community of women on here. I have never seen such an outpouring. You are very loved :) My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family. I look forward to seeing the tribute your girls made.

  10. That you can express yourself so beautifully in the midst of your grief is amazing - like you. I'm so glad you feel at least a small measure of comfort from the love showed to you & your girls here. *HUGS*

  11. I'm thinking about you and your family in this difficult time-- there really are no words other than to say that please come on an post anytime and ask for love and support. I know it's not the same as an in person hug, but the love is there for you and I am wishing your family peace and that you get through this most difficult time of grief as well as you can...

  12. Love you too, hun. *HUGS*

  13. Love You Barb, I wish I lived closer to be able to be with you on Wednesday. XO

  14. Hugs and love coming your way!!!

  15. Jen loves ya~ hugs too.

  16. ((((((((((((((Big Hug)))))))))))))

  17. We love you Barbara, sending prayers for peace and comfort to you and your family.