06 January 2011

Ramblings...

Alright.. I have no pictures of sexy calves to share as per Draz's blog..
in fact, my calves right now are pretty gross (that's what no shaving since Dec 3rd will do)..Gross I know.. but honestly since DH turned the universe upside down.. I have been neglectful with the shaving and waxing.. thank God its winter!!.  Just curious if I hold the record out there with going over a full month without using the razor.. Can anyone beat that!!

And Sandy's post on cookies.. made me want to splurge and EAT something.. so I grabbed a bag of chips all fit and content to binge and good grief after chip number 4 I am stuffed.. that sounds soooo stupid but honestly.. I think my pouch holds just about a taste of anything.. (not complaining, but damn sometimes a girl just wants to have a good pig out!!

So.. here I sit 11pm, just home from my daily visit at the hospital.. needing to escape..
By the way we are now at day 22 in this stay (after a previous 12 day stay).. so I am kind of getting tired of smelling like purell, disinfected linens and latex.  Things are proceeding with caution.. but are riddled with nerve racking events.. (enough said).. I really do not have the emotional energy to blog about DH right now.. and I am using this blog as a bit of escapism..

But there is one thing noteworthy... I have come to like the chili at the hospital.. it has 3 different kind of beans and corn in it.. not too spicy, but my band and stomach seem to tolerate it quite well.
My daily diet is rounded out with a whopping large coffee and 1 EAS protein drink...  and that's it..
I know I must sound like a broken record.. but I really can not believe the difference in this last fill.

SPEAKING of Which.. I just got my insurance benefit statement.. my surgeon charged my insurance $250 for my last fill.. luckily my copay is only $10.. but damn... it sure doesn't seem like $250 worth of work..

I am only a few days away from another dreaded birthday..
I have now turned the celebration into a close scrutiny and official count of wrinkles..
I have noticed with the WL things seem a bit loose and I am always slathering on this or that on my neck.. (I have read that the neck and hands are the first to show your age).. so I am always slapping some goop on them at night.. although I am now turning to retinal creams or serums..

Well.. I can always start to save up for some fillers or plastic surgery.. nip, tuck.. all that stuff..
God I hate Birthdays..

be well

7 comments:

  1. Glad to see you are escaping a bit and hoping things are going better with your hubs. But since we are focusing on YOU-- I am happy this fill is doing great things for you so keep up the awesome work.
    I feel like I need to do a bit better with watching what I eat since the fill is working for me too-- but at the end of the day, watch out sliders... so I'm working on it!
    xo V

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  2. Barbara, you are in my prayers! I think I've gone a month before without shaving, but honestly I have like 5 hairs on each leg, I don't know how that happened. I'm with you on the binge, although, I could eat more than 4 chips, I was very stressed the other day and wanted to just eat, I ended up having a glass and a half of milk for my binge, wow...that's a big change from the days before the band! Hang in there sister, we love you!

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  3. Oh Barbara, I've been thinking of you so much. Glad to hear from you; I've also found frustration when I tried to have a good pigout. Which is good, because that's why I got this thing in the first place. But in that moment, I'm never thrilled about it.

    A little nip and tuck never hurt anyone, I say.

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  4. And my pig out led to a day of cravings. Probably due to all the sugar and all the insulin which is floating around my system. Gotta keep strong. I will also say that 4 chips could be a splurge-Remember the commercial-Bet you can't eat just one! Which must have meant that there are some people in the world who would be happy with one chip. I am sure they are in an insane asylum, but just saying.

    Hugs and good thoughts being sent your way. And I won't binge anymore if you also stop bingeing on chips :-) Miss you right back but will always be here for you.

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  5. So happy to see you here today Barbara! Hugs to you girl!

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  6. You likey my calves honey? I'm glad...I hope they made you smile. Not a dreaded birthday - because without another birthday you'd not be in my life...and you in my life is something I need. Prayers are still coming - from me to you - I only wish I could do more.

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  7. I have this crazy weirdness with letting the hair on my calves grow. I can't go more than a few days because I feel itchy. This just started a few months ago - hopefully it's not a sign of some strange mental condition coming upon me, but I can't go more than a few days. Of course that's what I focus on because my heart is hurting so much for what you, your husband and family are going through. I just wish I could transport to where you are and give you a big hug, listen to all your hopes and fears and try to make you laugh. Hope you can have some joy on your birthday.

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