Yep.. that is what I have become.
I still can not eat alot, but what I am reaching for is crap.
A cookie, a cracker..
I had a small salad for dinner last night.
My weightloss has kind of stopped.. I teeter between 180 and 179.. depends on the time of day.
I think the carbs I am now consuming are sucking up water/sodium
I really think I lost alot of muscle along the way.
My skin is really really loose.
That part is really depressing.
I think I am just freaking depressed ......period.
There is so much in front of me to tackle.
I try to get myself motivated and then ..
just one little freaking thing derails me.
This is sooooo NOT me.
Work has sucked me back in.. going full steam.
I have business trips piling on....
God this is a depressing post... maybe I need to rewrite..
eh.. maybe not.. its the way I feel... screw it.
I am stressing about the house...
its just me.
but there is so much of us here.
All of my memories are here.
I wish I could turn the clock back.
How can this freakin life be!!
Why did God do this to me.
Hug your babies, husband and loved ones tonight..
Just hug them tight.