Anxious

As I approach my surgery date it seems like the stories about everyone's experience with their surgery are coming out of the woodwork.  And to be honest all of these stories are making Me anxious

Ugh but here is the worst one shared by a co-worker who is 8 weeks out from surgery

He went to a very renowned surgical center in Philadelphia known for joint replacement.
Prior to surgery he informed the medical group that he had GERD (reflux)
Well surgery proceeded and they put him under and as part of the surgical procedure for the hip they lower your upper body so your head is lower than the hip.

So they proceed with the surgery and incision and all was going well and he starts to aspirate (because of the reflux) so they bring him out of his plane of anesthesia to stabilize him. Keep in mind they have already started the procedure.

They are concerned about other episodes of aspiration so they decide to do the procedure with a  spinal but (get this) he was awake!!!!!!!!!!!!

He said he could hear the chipping and sawing!
UGH!!!!
When he told me this my heart started to race ...
Oh God oh God.  If that happened to me I know I would go into cardiac arrest

So now I know the chance of this happening to me is next to nil but every time I think about my heart races.   It's all I can think about

I have a good surgeon but good Lord why do these things happen???

So the mind wonders  

I wish I could turn this brain off.

Be well