I am so disappointed. I really started out this week with the best intentions and mindset to make it to Onderland.. I had a food plan, exercise plan, the whole nine yards.... and it just ain't happening.
I WANT RESTRICTION AND I WANT IT NOW!!!
I am just eating and eating.. it's not that I am eating crap, I am eating turkey chili, and clementines, and a bowl of cereal and beans and rice and brie and crackers... I can not get satisfaction..and I have NO Restriction. I pack my lunch for work, with the thought that when I am out of food that's it.. I even have chewable fiber tablets that I supplement throughout the day, thinking that would kill my desire to want to eat more. I am trying to figure this out in my head.. it must all be stress related eating...I have so many fires to put out at work..
... I guess this is Bandster Hell.. I hate Bandster Hell, in fact "to Hell with Bandster Hell"
I called the surgeon's office today, trying to get my appointment moved up (as I am scheduled for the 22nd).. there are just no openings, I am on the cancellation list though. I even thought about saying it was an emergency, yeah but I am not a good liar. I guess I am also feeling frustrated... but I will get over it...Just give me my damn fill already.. be well..