Daris was the last to weigh in to see if he would make the cut for the final three... Result.. he gained 2 lbs.
He made a very poingnent self confession that he did great all day, but in the evening he stuffed his face with junk... basically he SABOTAGED himself. I thought to myself, why would you do this...
And then thought, why do WE do this ???
If we love ourselves why would we set ourselves up for failure?
Here was Darris, in contention to win a quarter million dollars and a sure place in the final and he threw it away to pacify himself with food... to feed some burning issue that is still inside of him..
Food... the thing that should nourish us, becomes more of an instrument to console us, when we are happy, sad, stressed.. or whatever emotion we are not prepared to handle in life.
It just got me thinking about my own eating habits... I am not innocent in this syndrome.. I do it all the time.
I think we can all relate to concept of diets and the guilt feeling it leaves us with and labels we put on ourself as "cheating", "falling off the bandwagon", "snacking in the closet, under the bed, late at night".
What is it that we are really craving???
Is it that ability to deal with the emotions that we only know how to handle through the calming feeling food gives us... do we not let ourselves truly experience the full impact that the emotion was intended for us to feel?
When I am stressed.. I eat..
But here is what I know for sure...
I am physically and mentally looking for something to make it better.. and I have conditioned myself to turn to food...
The band is not going to fix this.
Medication is not going to fix this.
I NEED TO FIX THIS...
Straight head on, in the stark, bright shine of it all... I need to feel that emotion and NOT TURN TO FOOD.
Am I alone.. I really felt for Daris .... I hope he figures it out..