Like everyone else... I am so excited about meeting everyone.. we are actually in countdown mode to the day of the big event.
But.... I will share something.. I am also having some major anxiety..
And about what you may ask..
It's the ELEPHANT in the room to me.. and that is..
What to pack and what everyone will be wearing.. for whatever activity we are planning or doing.
Here is my fear..
This gathering is going to become a major fashion show..
And I don't blame all of you who have reached goal to want to enjoy and show off your new found figures, but I have some major anxiety that in the end .. this is all going to make me feel miserable.
I go through this every time I have a social event.. what is everyone going to be wearing and how can I adapt to the situation and not look out of place... I still lack self confidence in this area (big time).
It's not that I can't doll myself up.. but no way in hell will I be an 6, 8, 10, 12 or maybe not even a 14.. and I know you will all say that it doesn't matter, that we just want to see you.. but deep down in my subconscious, the image will resonate that I will be "the only fat girl at a party of skinny girls"
It's my hang up .. not yours.. but it is a fear and I am already starting to think about this..
I just needed to get that off my chest..