Ugh. it's 4 am and I have been up for an hour.
I will attribute this to anxiety!
I am taking today off to run around like a nut and pack in all of those things that you just cant get done on a weekend and I think I have every hour accounted for today between doc appt, hospital test, lawyer appt, car appt, home repair appt. and then tonight I am off to the Phillie's game. Thank goodness the cable guy isn't coming cause you know that would throw everything into a tail spin.
And of course there is the obligatory stay on top of work email (BB) moments!!
So the craziness stays, but even with my momentary anxiety, there is a big thing that has changed!!
Pre-band, I would have already been downstairs to scout out any thing to calm my nerves (MEANING EATING CRAP).
A big ah ha moment came around 3:30 this morning, as I was stressing, I reached for my bottle of water and took a few calming gulps..
No Hershey bar, left over Chinese food, cold french fries!!
Water.. and it was a natural reflex not a "lets stop in our tracks and think about this" kind of reaction.
This is a huge behavioral change, that totally did not exist 2 years ago.
And that my friends is a huge NSV!!!