Why do I feel so freakin Guility???
I am in such a good place in my life right now.
I have just had the most amazing weekend of fun and have never felt so happy.
Yet I feel so guilty.
I feel as though I should not be at this state of mind of happiness at this point in my life.
We just got back from a 3 hr ride on the Harley, up the Delaware River,It was awesome!!
I have not been this happy is so long...
I can't remember the last time.55
K is so wonderful to me .
He loves me so much, how can that be??
He tells me I am beautiful, and that he loves me.
Reallly I think.. I am 55.. what can be so beautiful at 55?
Yet, without fail, he reminds me that I am an amazing woman, more than he can imagine.
Can you all understand how hard that is to acknowledge?
Not that I think I am an ogre or some odd person, but to hear someone tell you that they love you after an incredibly long marriage is a very hard thing to take in...
I feel so guilty for allowing myself to love again.
WHy should I?
The timing is off..
It's a very difficult emotion to come to grips with.
THis is not how my life is to play out.. Mark and I were to live on to infininty... and now all of that is gone and I am left to start new...
I feel so guilty... my emotions are in a turmoil... I cant let go, but I want to move forward so badly.
Have any of you experience this tug of emotions?
It is so difficult to explain in words... How can I..
I can only pray to GOd that he will navigate me to the place where I belong..
although, I think I know.. I just want to be sure.
thank youto all of my good friends in blog land.. you have been my life line in this journey of discovery.. I love you all.