My alarm goes off at 6 am every morning, but I am up way in advance.
I have developed this dreaded habit of waking up at 4:30 .. ugh.. I really really would like to sleep til 6am.
To be honest, I still have these little moments of anxiety.. I mean heart racing, losing my breath and getting dizzy moments.
I guess the problem is I think too much about the "what if's" in life.
I have also come to realize I have probably spent countless hours worrying about things I can not control.
I guess worry has its place in life.. although it seems like a lot of wasted energy at times.
Letting worry go is one of my life lessons to conquer this year.
I have observed those that do not let things get to them. They seem to be fairly content individuals.
I admire them.
It makes me stop and wonder if I have some kind of OCD or something.
WHY DO I WORRY SO MUCH.. about my own personal life.
The odd thing, is when I am at work.. I hardly worry about anything. I am always developing some kind of action plan or response team to evaluate situations or problems. Always, calm, cool and composed.
Why can't I transfer this to my personal life?
Instead of having an MBA, I think I need a MLA (Masters of Life Administration).
It is truly something I want to improve upon in my life.
I know this will make me a better person and allow me to enjoy life.